Woow. Just when you think you have this person and you take complete advantage of that and it is all taken away. How that person put that smile on you’re face made you feel amazing about yourself, even having low self-esteem for that minute or 2 reading that message listening to that person say the most cutest things ever you believe it, when you cuddle up to the person and he does those cute little things that make you giggle, just kissing him and being so close made me so happy even when it is completely quiet lieing down is the best feeling in the world. He really did make me feel like the best person out there and for a little bit the only girl in the world. Always having the person on your mind wondering all different things, how great he is how much you miss them …but what are they really thinking about you I’m always wondering and apparently he was probably thinking of when and how he was going to break up with me. Honestly if I could change back time I would and maybe do everything different. Maybe be the person he really deserved and try doing stuff different. You know that feeling when you see someone and you get those butterflies because you liked them so much and you get so excited inside, that feeling never stopped with him. He was amazing some people say I deserve better I don’t think so I thought he was pretty great. I wish I knew why he didn’t really want to be with me. You always get those thoughts of maybe your fat or not pretty enough, well at least I do, and it defiantly sucks there wouldn’t be just one thing I would want to change about me but EVERYTHING! … I wish this person still had feelings for me … I want to talk to him about maybe getting back together and trying it out again doing stuff differently perhaps and working it out .. Well I wish I could talk to him but I’m to scared for what he would have to say to me maybe not even liking me at all and doesn’t want to try again … You know what I wish happened is if we got back together and it was like at are beginning of our relationship with those cute little cheesy comments hanging out being there for each other. The feeling I felt with him was oh maybe someone does care about me, but of course not nothing really does every work out in the end with me. I love the thought that he cared about me the way he would look at me and cuddle me rubbing my arm. I always told him how much I liked him and he was that guy that made me the happiest girl I didn’t think this would happen. I always tried to make him jealous if he would make me mad. I remember one day we were suppose to hang out but we didn’t end up hanging out because he didn’t seem like he wanted to so i told him I’m going to hang out with this guy and just ignored him even though I didn’t hang out with that guy I went to the gym instead ;) or when I would tease him and make it soo hard for him to do stuff :) after I went on talking to him when we broke up i told him that he deserves better or whatever and i’m not that great anyways and he said don’t say that you’re amazing, if I was so amazing then why do not want to date anymore, I don’t understand why people need to lie to just make the other person happy it is so frustrating, he also says that he doesn’t want me outta of his life and to still be friends I really doubt he will be the first to text me I hate this feeling knowing hoow much you care for this person you can’t make them feel the same way about you. It wasn’t the greatest start to my weekend always hoping maybe we will get together but im just so confused I dont want to feel annoying and put him in a situation. One of my good friends say it could have been his friends that broke us up to. I kinda think that I dont get why people do that you know if you like someone then stay with them I had so many people talk shit bout him did that stop me from not staying with him nope I liked the kid too much all have to say to the people is i like him and hes a great guy I dont give two shits about what they thought about him my opinion and his opinion should be the only thing that matters in the relationship it should be the only thing that ends the relationship no one else’s opinions. All i want is to turn back time and be in his arms again… :/